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April 1, 2013

It is typical for me to be releasing and producing stuff and not updating this website. Most current updates are on the Tactil Vision FB page....anyway, a few notes on TV work as of today:

"Libertine" has been remixed and will be released on a future work, as well as "Threadz"...they have been omitted from their original Bandcamp albums.

A new "mixtape" of the yet unreleased "Tremors" has been done and will be released on 5AM Mixcloud. I am contemplating releasing an album version of the tracks, since mp3 did not do them proper.

The Bandcamp release "Psychotropic Swingset" will be added to and become an "EP" and the cover art updated.

details - September 11, 2012

Currently, i seem to be working on details and getting things polished up...happily, my health is better and a track from "Rising" will appear on CRL studios upcoming compilation, for whom i have submitted photography for the last one. Also, it has been a year since BentWithLight has performed and will be again in October with 4 other bands in a benefit concert...so i am working on a couple of new songs here and a video; trying to get geared/prepared during a summer which has been mostly producing IDM and late-night remixes.

tactil vision "branewashr" (free DL) - August 23, 2012

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"Dustd" InterView - June 5, 2012

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(interview regarding Tactil Vision's latest one-track release Dustd)

Interview

Tell me about the equipment and software that was used to create this work.

The only software was redubbing some stuff through Audiomulch; an Ensoniq sampler, some old synths and FX units....the first session i used a guitar effects unit and DJ mixer to create feedback loops...then i re-dubbed some guitar-scraping noises and such to a 1/4" reel-to-reel and pitched down. Other ambience were samples from TV and movies. Basically, live mixing stuff from CD, Minidisc, tape and sampler.

It's a live recording that has been fifteen years in the making?

I know that sounds a bit contradictory huh? basically, i mixmaster everything to 2 tracks; as with this, instruments, tapes, etc. are all going at once- in this case, drones or feedback or noise sessions that on their own didn't have context. I like doing things better on the fly, using some "chaos magick" i suppose, doing several things at once. It is really a slippery definition, especially with electronic music these days, but in this case the "sequencer" was human. I prefer to work without a computer using older stuff and improvisation: using limitations as an advantage. The challenges have for the most part been a lack of creativity or inspiration and not lack of gear. The idea is to have some sort of tension involved and being in the moment; being free to make mistakes or having surprises. I had tried a multi tape when i first started recording, but most of the instruments were MIDI anyway and i could get a better sound and less noise in one take direct to stereo than with a Portastudio. So, i call it "live" because i was using minimal material that was done in 1997, 2000 and this year: i guess it also emphasizes the way mixing was done, it was a performance in itself. So the trick was to not overdo it, to compress pieces and introduce things in a cinematic way in a specific space of time and see how they play off each other and interact. I guess like a conversation between 4 people, where if too many talk at once, they drown themselves out. So i am glad you ask about the process of it, it really is about being as much in the moment as the final product - maybe more!

What surprised you about this recording?

This recording, as well as experimental music; i am actually surprised that there is as much interest as there is and how much. But i guess it's a genre of die-hards ;)

You say the idea is "...being free to make mistakes or having surprises." Were there any "mistakes" that turned into nice surprises?

It really is hard to say at this point and something i just don't think about anymore. Since part of the reason for doing it is to get out of self for a bit...i guess it is a whole-brain experience now, beyond pleasure or disappointment or ego. Especially at the time of production, you're just analyzing the sounds with one side and getting the aesthetics with the other. You only know what the path is when you've dropped off. "Surprises" and "mistakes" really seem to me to be projections and judgments- and i am trying to get beyond those projections- which always seem to be tied to value judgments; whether something is "good" or "bad"...I think when people experience something "good", subconsciously maybe they are just saying it corresponds with "truth", while "bad", untruth. I am seeing this more now, especially in popular media where we are just being fed our own preconceptions and not being challenged. When it is all said and done (though art is never finished, it is said), i guess it is an instinctual feeling of whether it conveyed the moment or not- whether the work took me instead of me playing the control game. And i guess if it didn't yield any surprises or sense of freedom, i wouldn't do it at all....so the answer is yes. Specifically i cannot say- but going back to media, the internet, music, information and control, it all feeds back to Gysin or Burroughs. They conveyed things that deep down that connected with me at a young age and are more relevant than ever. I am not extremely well-read, but you understand the concepts, which the English language doesn't serve very well. An artists' work is like breathing- why does he do it? Because he must. I only know that living is preferable to death because it is familiar to me. Sometimes the point is to be disappointed, also...there are more flaws and disorder than order and i find these flaws actually perpetuate the work rather than satisfaction- which for myself is recently becoming rooted in my illusions, which i am trying to tear down.

Hence the name, Tactil Vision? I think it's an interesting idea that flaws perpetuate the work. Chris Ballew talked about not being afraid to "suck" in an interview I did a decade ago. And I think much new music I'm hearing embraces flaws. But I think maybe it's not really the flaws, but getting down the nature of a thing that is the real yearning.

tactil vision "alone with ghosts" (free DL) - February 18, 2012

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http://tactil-vision.bandcamp.com/

the 3rd release, including live end of set dub recorded acoustically

 

BentWithLight "endtime" - January 14, 2012

http://bentwithlight.bandcamp.com

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Released Jan. 13th, the newest "bonus" track WarHeadz was included> Includes remix by RO1OR. This is the product of many years of experimentation and is yet my best collection of "electronic rock", but crosses genres: mainly influenced by industrial, punk and metal as well as electro. In the works is a CD pressing; in the meantime a LE CDr version is available thru PayPal for $5 at stevieseven@live.com

tactil vision- "perception is everything" mixtape - January 5, 2012

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Free DL (music section) mixtape of prev. unreleased tracks, recorded live in underground fashion. Part 1 of 2- total time: 29 minutes

BentWithLight SC - July 12, 2011

Started ULing past BWL singles on http://soundcloud.com/5amconductions-1

and perhaps listening to them again and reviewing the previous releases, there still needs to be a bit of refinement as far as direction and overall vibe. It was necessary perhaps to air out influences and experiment with limits, remaining open-ended....But perhaps this is the advantage of being DIY- that i really have no one to answer to and can work at my own pace. i see BWL being less accessible-sounding, darker, heavier and more experimental; as there is still another albums' worth of material of this sort and maybe 2 or 3 to be done.

I have found the biggest challenge is assigning visual elements, as sometimes things get too complicated so usually i go with the simplest design. Ironically, the much of the art and graphic design i do does not really "sound" like my music, though it is coming from the same person.

 

A recent EP of tracks that reflects the earlier days of electro influence is being assembled for promo, mostly for DJ's. But feeling i have explored enough, that i need to really define the vision more clear is occurring with a little break from production and time to reflect. Easier said than done to be uncompromising when trends raise their ugly head.

& - April 11, 2011

another insert for noisiV litcaT promos

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new kitty - March 19, 2011

Dedicated to the victims of the Japan Earthquake and because my library was getting full again, i am excited to announce the release of Asian Flowers by NOISIV LITCAT.

Much of the East's philosophy, history and principles continue to inspire me as well as the beauty of the people. It is a part of the world i would very much like to visit and explore further as many artists from the West before me.

This is a 10-track release with a donation- it will not be directly contributed to the many organizations involved with the crisis as i feel this is a personal decision on everyone's part and to not appear to be "capitalizing" on it.  I did and do believe this current event is perhaps a portent of things to come as a reflection of our reliance on technology, the surge in need of new energy and resources places us in a fragile position as the planet's systems struggle to maintain a balance between the natural and man-made...

Noisiv Litcat live - February 27, 2011

it's been about two Saturnine cycles since my last performance, but i am very excited to open up for Mark G. of The Evolution Control Committee and Jeff Central, who set the show up here

http://www.wildgoosecreative.com

March 4th in Columbus. Both have been very good friends thru the years and Jeff was actually instrumental in getting my very 1st CD pressing in 1997. I am really honored to be included and hopefully this won't happen the same day of the 2nd move of 2k11- but when it rains it pours...

I will be doing sort of a DJ/musical set, using turntable, various noisemakers/FX and sampler for an improv feel, putting a new mix/spin on tracks such as Velvet Crush as well as some new unreleased material.

too many notes - February 2, 2011

well, i have released another BentWithLight digital, mostly further defining the songwriting from the experimentalism, but i really actually like how it turned out as being a follow-up to "Burnt Offerings". I decided to go back to my roots (cliche), even mastering to cassette and with a more live jam feel, with live drums and improv.; a pretty close sound to live performance as i can get.

Speaking of live performance, i am gearing up for either a late winter/mid spring noisiv litcat show, i think with more old school dub and downtempo/loungy material and have asked my brother to play guitar. Will be picking up a wah pedal for him and maybe more FX. I plan on using a turntable in the mix, too. It should be a good setup to get back into performing, with a laid-back feel and for my bro to get acquainted with my flow, for possible bigger venues.

promos - January 27, 2011

This is how it has been done- DIY hand-made promos. I used to dub each CD track by track real time, but having them on hard drive now helps the production. I like to put these together and make each with a variety of tracks.

I have had all kinds of interesting reactions to these and there just isn't anything like giving something hand made personally.

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haus - January 22, 2011

well, settled in and produced two tracks in the new place, which is going to be a construction zone for awhile, so i will have plenty of practice setting up/tearing down. working on tracks for collab with Jeff Central.

Re:Loxc - January 5, 2011

i am just having this feeling the more i am away from the www; that it is really hard to claim ownership of anything in it. I moved- i could pack my material belongings upon moving, secure them, relocate them; but the information i release and work i publish- it belongs to everyone. I could not pack up 5AM, or gather back up what i have put out and so, my energy this year will be placed more into tactile accomplishments- live work.

I talked to a girl today who worked at the local record store, who informed me she didn't keep up with music; that her interest was gardening and rarely did she 'go out'. It struck me that the virtual life is becoming more and more real while real life is becoming less- perhaps in the near future, "if it wasn't published on the internet, it didn't happen..." and i feel the call of that familiar obsolete life that i only have witness to, that lonely and personal video documentary that continues to play out unseen- where the only recording made is vague chemical imprints in my neural network, of which i alone can only interpret as reality. 

So, it appears once again, one's life must be art- not product or skill or cleverness, but individual experience.

progress - December 23, 2010

Well i have been assembling a nice little catalogue this past year of new NOISIV LITCAT stuff after exploring different genres, most of my favorites consist of old school electro combined with noise-rhythms. And reworking a few BentWithLight songs as well, where there is an ambient rock release that the cover and name is all ready.  It will probably be a 7 or 8 song release. I haven't really got around out too much this year, so the DIY made CDr releases have taken a back seat. i always enjoyed putting them together though and coming up with different concepts. I do have an eBay store now, so that seems another route to release limited-edition stuff. 

Now that i have the storage for it, have been working a lot of graphics and designed a cover for SCREAM MACHINE's remix album. I feel this could also be some side-work to collaborate with another person who has more advanced tools than i. SO the visual work helps stimualte the audio to an extent, or i am getting the gist of combining the two, using limited resources. I just viewed an excellent minimal vidi by SMALL LIFE FORMS that reminded me again- it's not the tools, but how you use them.

Overall, 2010 has been productive all in all. I used the time to hone my skills and get centered in creating my own sound and paying attention to the little details and some self-discipline.

VS remix - December 18, 2010

RO1OR has remixed the Velvet Crush track, which the original appears on the split infinity release.

He has been doing a great job using my stems and adding another flavor to noisiv litcat.

http://soundcloud.com/soillodge/noisiv-litcat-vs-soillodge-velvet-crush

October 11, 2010

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New- 'Rock And Roll Death Girls' Facebook page.  Find it your own damn self.

more 5AM pages + music - September 6, 2010

if you haven't noticed, the BentWithLight and tactil vision releases are now free downloads. i will get into the moral arguments and justifications in my blog later.  there are also links to my facebook where i interact more often...

new blog section - September 6, 2010

from now on, i will publish further creative writing/metaphysical musings about life, death, sex, the music industry and my art/projects there.  join in the discussion- proper punctuation and typo not necessary!

all other news concerning projects will still be here!

Insanity - February 28, 2009

Waiting patient, surrounded by soft sound, until my number comes up. There are magazines full of Hollywood psycho-junk, a box of engineered cut-and-paste schizophrenia with overdubbed sound effects and laugh tracks; others like me- poor, sick and disillusioned. The bleached radiation filters through my skin from above; there's a silver box attached to the wall that spurts out a clear liquid resembling water, but leaves dried-up crusty white stuff. There's a child, sucking on the business end of a magic marker. Her mother's attention is fixed on the magic box. War breaks out in a tiny country that exports narcotics. Her fingers smell like a thousand chemicals and her skin is ashy and wrinkled. In the magazine she sees a body part she would like to make her own. New and Used cars with factory-to-dealer incentives and instant cash back on your trade- pull it, push it or drag it in. She is contemplating doing away with herself; saying goodbye to it all, once and for good. A new bathroom tissue dispenser that automatically tears off the correct amount with a press of a button. The doctor can't sort out which diagnosis fits her best, but suspects she suffers from a simple case of neglect at an early age. Hormone pills for weight loss. The cold, black coffee stares at her from inside a paper cup cut from the finest trees north of Portland. The music continues with a covertune from George Michael. Advertisement for Cherry Flavored Toothpaste. She tells the child to mind.

The Labyrinth - January 16, 2009

One day, a young pupil asked, "Master, what does it mean to be enghtened?." The master then smiled and told the boy a story: "Once there was a small village in the south. It was secluded and when the boys of the village were ready to pass into manhood, they fasted for three days and then on the fourth, attended a ceremony led by the Viilage elder and his priests. After the music, dancing and singing, the boys were to sit and carefully listen to the rules of The Labyrinth.

"After the chief priest gave his blessing, the elder spoke down upon the seated pupils, while the warriors of the village sat lotus-style along the walls of the temple and the villagers stood anxiously outside. "He said, 'It is now time for you to enter The Labyrinth. You must all hurry to find your guardian spirit, for some never find their way back out, starve and die. You will each be given food but must not eat it, for your guardian spirit is hungry too, so you must feed him first. If you do, he will lead you out of the labyrinth to safety and your manhood will begin. If you do not, your guardian will die and assuredly, you will too. Your spirits will take the form of an animal that suits you. Once you find him, you will know it by looking him straight into the eye. Above all, the most important thing to remember is to be unselfish and always give.'"

"Then the five boys lined up at the entrance of the labyrinth and upon hearing the sound of the temple gong, they took off with speed through the maze. "The first boy was given meat. About halfway through, his hunger got the best of him and he took a few bites and just then saw a large leopard before him, drooling. The boy then tossed the entire piece to the leopard and the leopard devoured it whole and was sure to assist him to the exit. He was to become the villages butcher. "The second boy was given rice, so he put it in his pocket, where there was a hole and some leaked from it.  About halfway through, he did not see his animal was a rat, who was following him the entire time. But the boy made it out, as did the rat. He later became the village's timekeeper. The third boy was given water and upon meeting the dog, he set the bowl down in front of the dog and when finished, the dog found a lifelong friend to guide the boy out of the maze. The boy later became the village counselor.  The fourth boy was given a dead toad. Of course, the boy, no matter how hungry he was, was not going to eat the toad. He met his guardian animal, a snake and the snake, upon finishing the toad, slithered up the boy and curled itself around his neck. The boy was frightened, but he made it out of the Labyrith and he was to become the next village elder.  The fifth boy was given a small piece of bread but did not find an animal at all and was very disappointed. He covered the entire labyrinth several times, hungry, lonely and it was getting dark. He decided to stop and rest. He thought to himself that it would be better to die than to exit the labyrinth without a guardian spirit. His life would surely be meaningless and purposeless and he would have to become the village beggar. He quickly fell to sleep.

Then suddenly, he saw another boy. The other boy was even smaller and emaciated and although he wanted to eat, the fifth boy threw the piece of bread on the ground and then, the other smaller boy immediately picked it up and devoured it. Before he could finish it, in disgust, the fifth pupil went over and stuck his finger down the other boys throat and up came the bread! He then walked away, weeping in the pitch black and the next morning finally made it out of the labyrinth. Although he was the last to finish, and was full of guilt, he was to become the village shaman, or priest and learned later that he had fallen asleep from exhaustion, put the piece of bread inside his shoe and dreamed about the whole occurence with the other boy."

The pupil spoke up after the story was finished. "Why did the last boy not become shunned and labeled a failure? Why did he instead become the spiritual leader of the village? What does this mean, Master?" The Master replied, "The other boys learned through their success, but the last boy learned through his failure. He realized that dispite his life being at stake, so was his self-respect and dignity." The Master then said, "Food nourishes the body, but hunger nourishes the soul."

more poetry - January 18, 2007

Here Lies Another Dead Junkie or Our Pilot Has Lost His Mind His ambitions were smart-- He had a lot to say until one day the punctuation mark he left for the world was a shotgun suicide. (Our old friend Hunter) Yes, We all have to die sometime And this great man made sure that his end would be stellar. Some prefer flowers and eulogies or "The Old Rugged Cross" to mark their passing. Some believe that it is a celebration of a life that noone else can experience. And yes, Some secretly desire death, Just counting the days, Taking up space. Or there was a line that they crossed and they didn't think twice or turn back- They were prepared to go meteor. It's hard to make sense of terrestrial coincidences but What needed to happen happened. Because there has always been a war going on in everyone's world between good and evil, Right and wrong, This and that. And there is a reason for this, though I am only a monkey strapped to a chair. And truth, in it's weird and wacky way will eventually out. Everyone will know exactly who everyone else is and their secrets and sins will be exposed for all to see, So that once and for all there will be no more doubt that we have all been had One time or another. So I can't keep on fooling myself anymore, I am getting older and I have done everything I could and then some more until it got me where I didn't want to be in the first place. But I bought the ticket I jumped in the rocket And I took the ride. Major Tom and I seen all kinds of beautiful and strange things up there, Until we finally ran out of air and stopped breathing. Then I thought: "What kind of foolishness is that?" Still, the moon seems to be attractive for those who can't tolerate the gravity of life on earth. And noone wants to be your friend when you are a million miles away and still taking up space.

The Ants - January 16, 2007

The Ants

An ant never becomes lonely,
while people often are.
Though both cover the earth in masses
searching for food and shelter
And enemies to fight.
A person cannot carry many times his weight,
while an ant can.
People do work together
and build empires reaching to the sky,
Though I cannot imagine ants arguing amongst themselves
about who is the better or stronger.
If a flood comes to threaten,
the ants form a mass by clinging together.
The water comes
and they float peacefully to wherever the water takes them.
They seem not to worry
because this has happened before
And each knows their place:
The workers are on the bottom of the ant-raft.
They do not drown because of the magic of suface tension.
Above them are the drones, who care for the unhatched young
and the Queen.
The Queen, although she has wings, does not fly away-
for what would she be without her brood?
And the workers do not betray their place-
for what would they be without their Queen?

People, when the water comes,
panic and confuse easily;
They do not cling to each other.
Instead, many die alone.
People would not have to spend so much effort in becoming
stronger as an individual
if they cooperated like the ants.
Instead, they would enjoy the fruits of brotherhood
and would not suffer the ills of self-centeredness.

Even though they cover the earth
and scurry about in a frenzy,
People are often lonely.
They say, "This is mine
and that yours."
They wage war with each other
Though there is no threat.
The larger often destroy the smaller,
until there is no more to sustain their ravenous appetite.
And this is when loneliness seems quite bearable
compared to hunger
and death.

by Stevie Seven
copyright 2006
(inspired by the film "Oldboy")


Haunted

It has been a year now,
this place I reside
another stop in my journey.
Why do these things follow me?
Why do some things remain,
while others pass?
Old carpet
dark stains
places of accident
and coincidence...
"Water seeks its own level"
Always downward.
Low water, old water, black liquid
dissoving everything.
Silent, still, patient.
I live with your stains.
So many times I have found myself on the floor
on my knees
after your passing,
cleaning up the mess.
Another stain.
So I bought a new carpet to cover them and not long until
another drink is spilled.
I thought nothing of the meaning until then,
your trademark-
your way of reminding me of your presence
when I least expect it
made its way through the fog
and said,
you are not alone.

E - January 4, 2007

is the first letter/word of the new Tactil Vision disk.
it should feel new indefinitely.
I hate trends.
www.cdbaby.com/tactilvision
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